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Sunday, October 25th, 2009
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1:50 pm
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Fabulous weekend.
Now I can end it with two days off, and chillin at the computer with my cat in my lap.
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| Monday, October 19th, 2009
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12:54 pm
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Amanda's Birthday weekend= success.
So much fun.
Now... Monday, back to real life.
Stupid frustrating stuff.
Gotta go do laundry today, and a whole bunch, gotta wash all the jackets that have been in my car since winter ended last year.
I swear, I have a war going on inside my brain right now. Too much, too little time!
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| Thursday, October 15th, 2009
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10:02 am
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I love this time of year...
Halloween is coming up soon.
Fright Fest Friday night!
New winter coat.
Sweaters.
Having you to cuddle with.
It's perfect.
I just miss Jen...
She's the only one who gets it.
I've been awake since early...
I don't start til 2.
I've read the whole wookieepedia article on General Grievous this morning.
So good.
Now... to the gym, I suppose.
Hopefully there's something to do on a Thursday night.
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| Monday, September 28th, 2009
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10:44 pm
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Totally ran into Sean today, at the mall.
It's been days since I've seen him or talked to him.
Chatted for my whole lunch hour.
It's nice to see old friends...
Especially ones that you can just fall into old behavior with right away.
Like, you just talked yesterday, and talked everyday before that.
Found out things were worse for someone than I thought.
Sorry about that dude.
Anyways... Work is stressful...
I've been looking.
Stupid economy.
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| Friday, September 18th, 2009
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1:36 pm
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Blink was amazing.
And Weezer.
And Taking Back Sunday.
Luckily we were in a covered area too, while most of the 1000s of people that were there got soaked.
It was perfect.
Work... now.
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| Saturday, September 12th, 2009
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11:31 pm
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Seeing Blink tomorrow.
God, I hope I can help from being all stressed out and angry that there's like 38749374 people there.
Probably the last time I'll ever see them, so hopefully I can enjoy it.
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11:07 am
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I've realized it's time.
It's just a matter of breaking the news.
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| Saturday, September 5th, 2009
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8:51 pm
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Heading to Antioch once again.
Gosh, I can't believe Henry and Mel are leaving.
The end of an era... that's all I can say.
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| Saturday, August 22nd, 2009
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10:16 am
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So, I'm a huge believer in not fixing what isn't broken.
But..... Trade Secret is offering me a management position.
Giving up working in cosmetics sucks.
I like my job now.
But, more pay, benefits, pto, guranteed 40 a week, 9:30-6 tues- sat.
Should I?
No more worrying about the schedule.
I'd be the boss.
Of a store.
Just sorta intimidating.
Not to mention the fact that sometimes... I didn't like working there.
But we'll see what they offer me.
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| Friday, June 26th, 2009
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10:30 am - ugh
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I hate my mom.
She has no control, whatsoever.
My one day off this week, as soon as I wake up and I'm out of my room...
"Nicole, can you take me to the pharmacy?"
"I was about to leave for the gym..."
And, then all her rants and raves about how much she does around the house, and blah blah blah.
She doesn't have a job.
She doesn't have an income.
She doesn't support Jessica.
I do.
Why should I respect her as a mother?
She abandoned that role a long time ago.
Back when she started being so incoherant, for months, she couldn't make a sentence that made sense.
I remember... Henry coming over, sitting down on the couch next to my mom and fake barking like a dog, and then asking my mom when we got one? She started telling him this whole story about how we got it... even though we've never had one.
Randomly yelling, RONALD REGANS HERE!
She's absolutely nuts.
I guess that's what drugs do to people.
Fuck fuck fuck.
I'm irritated.
I can't ever do things on my own time.
I don't want to go to the gym anymore, I'm going to feel like crap if I don't.
Maybe I should just get a second job so I work 7 days a week and no one can bother me.
I just want to get out of here.
Everytime we try to move, something happens, completely out of our control.
I think I'm just cursed to stay here forever, and rot, like my parents have.
Grow older, more angry, and sorry as fuck.
I hate to say it, but that month that she was in the psych ward, was the best month I've had in a while.
I hate people's weaknesses, why can't they stop themselves.
And then their whole life is a burden on others.
My parents always told me they wanted me to do well in life, but I'm stuck here, because of them.
I'm scared to leave Jessica, she has no structure as is.
No one calls her to see where she's at while she's gone a week at a time, except for me...
I hate my family.
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| Wednesday, June 24th, 2009
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9:30 pm
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I've had this thing for over 5 years now...
I'll never delete it. I'll probably never stop using it, even though, it's hardly ever.
I'm bored, at home.
Jimmy and Chris are playing video games.
Jessica and Brian are at the boat... I'm waiting for them to return.
Ordered our computer yesterday... so I shall be on here alot more, most likely.
Jimmy starts school monday.
Ugh, we need a new beginning.
I hate Corey, I hope he dies a very painful, merciless death.
Amanda's moving away... it fucking sucks.
I want to buy a car now, I just need to keep saving.
Jetta or GTI, I will have, 2000 or newer by the end of the year.
I'll be super proud, my car, I bought, MYSELF.
dsj;lfkjdsklajfldskjf;lkjds
Working in Hayward sucks, I'll be happy to go back to the Concord counter tomorrow.
Blaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.
Sleepy.
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| Friday, June 12th, 2009
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10:14 pm
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It's been almost 3 years now, and even through the ups and downs... I think I love you now more than ever.
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| Saturday, April 18th, 2009
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11:16 pm
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"Sometimes, I wonder, will I ever have friends like you again..."
Probably not.
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| Sunday, February 22nd, 2009
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4:10 pm - It's Jessica's birthday today.
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We're watching the moth man prophecies.
Matt, Jessica, me.
Happy birthday!
Waiting on Amanda for the Cheesecake Factory.
Surprise, new phone.
Meh.
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| Thursday, November 13th, 2008
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3:23 pm - Dude...
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| Friday, October 3rd, 2008
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9:27 am
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Wooo new job.
Woo 12 an hour.
Woo, not having to work so much because of it.
But, I've already lost all my friends.
Well... except I guess I have been making new ones.
I guess it's time to accept that I'm going to have friends that aren't into the same things as I, always.
If that makes sense.
I just woke up.
Amanda got a bomb ass laptop.
2 gig video cardddddddddddd.
If only I were so lucky.
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| Tuesday, August 5th, 2008
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12:44 pm
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I miss being down for anything.
Yesterday...
Sean, Vanessa, Chase.
Sean and Chase- No job, no school.
Nicole and Vanessa- work-a-holics.
I wish I could have stayed out all night.
Fuck my jobs.
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| Saturday, August 2nd, 2008
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11:50 am
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Bahahaha.
Eric's coming over sometime this next week to play Soul Caliber.
I found out everyone I used to know does the same things as I do.
Makes me not feel so bad.
Chillin with Van and Chase on Monday.
All I needed to do was try.
I still want to quit one of my jobs.
I'll keep Golden Gate Fields.
Love it there.
But efff Trade Secret.
I want just one full time job, ugh.
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| Tuesday, July 15th, 2008
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12:56 pm - Please don't let it end this way...
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I don't know what it is about the internet. It always makes me so lonely. There's too many old, good, memories stored on here. It's weird, at 19 I feel like I've already lived out the best days of my life, and it's gone by so fast already. Now here I am, year and a half long relationship, no friends, no fun, just work. I write in this thing still to make my life into simple little lists, trying to make it sound exciting to two people who I miss more than anything. It's like trying to say "Yeah, I'm doing great!" Pfft. I just don't understand why things can't just all balance out. Why can't I have ALL these things at once? Why do I have to choose? I hope I run into EVERYONE at DVC, just so I can feel like I have human contact besides co-workers and my significant other. I miss San Fransisco, all the shitty spots. I miss bart, fuck my car. I just can't get excited about anything anymore, no more butterflies before a show. Am I dead inside? Or is this just growing up? Has everyone but me gotten over it already? Meh. I act like I''m okay now more than ever, but I think I'm doing worse than ever.
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| Monday, July 14th, 2008
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12:03 pm - Life...
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I think I like livejournal more than myspace, just because there's close to no one I know on here.
I'm starting at DVC in the fall, I just need school.
I want to get a degree in something, I'm thinking computers since I've taken up an interest in hardware... but would also love to learn more about software, even though I know the software part is going to be the hardest...
I want a new car, new place, new everything.
I just bought a new phone, I dig it hella.
Finally washed my car, for the first time, ha.
Our computer is almost done... the processor is on its way here.
I'm stoked, can't wait to play Crisis.
The wii has started collecting dust... too many good games on the PS3.
Enough of the nerdage.
Been jogging mile and a half three times a week with Sherene.
Drinking only water.
A month now.
I've realized it's much easier to go with someone, it makes you feel obligated.
Haven't been to shows... gas is expensive, and I can face the fact that I don't have too many friends there now, it happens.
Seeing Brand New on Saturday (Thanks Matt for the free tickets.)
I hate working at Trade Secret right now, it's lame, but the managment position will be up for grabs within the next month... but im also going to be working more at Golden Gate Fields... making 11.09 an hour sounds better than 8.50...
Whenever I'm at Trade Secret... I'm usually miserable.
Blah blah blah.
Pretty much.
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