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Sun, 25 Oct 2009 20:52:44 GMT

Fabulous weekend.
Now I can end it with two days off, and chillin at the computer with my cat in my lap.

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 19:56:26 GMT

Amanda's Birthday weekend= success.
So much fun.
Now... Monday, back to real life.
Stupid frustrating stuff.
Gotta go do laundry today, and a whole bunch, gotta wash all the jackets that have been in my car since winter ended last year.
I swear, I have a war going on inside my brain right now. Too much, too little time!

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 17:11:15 GMT

I love this time of year...
Halloween is coming up soon.
Fright Fest Friday night!
New winter coat.
Sweaters.
Having you to cuddle with.
It's perfect.
I just miss Jen...
She's the only one who gets it.

I've been awake since early...
I don't start til 2.
I've read the whole wookieepedia article on General Grievous this morning.
So good.
Now... to the gym, I suppose.

Hopefully there's something to do on a Thursday night.

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 05:50:19 GMT

Totally ran into Sean today, at the mall.
It's been days since I've seen him or talked to him.
Chatted for my whole lunch hour.
It's nice to see old friends...
Especially ones that you can just fall into old behavior with right away.
Like, you just talked yesterday, and talked everyday before that.

Found out things were worse for someone than I thought.
Sorry about that dude.

Anyways... Work is stressful...
I've been looking.
Stupid economy.

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 18:37:48 GMT

Blink was amazing.
And Weezer.
And Taking Back Sunday.
Luckily we were in a covered area too, while most of the 1000s of people that were there got soaked.
It was perfect.
Work... now.

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 06:35:47 GMT

Seeing Blink tomorrow.
God, I hope I can help from being all stressed out and angry that there's like 38749374 people there.
Probably the last time I'll ever see them, so hopefully I can enjoy it.

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 18:11:00 GMT

I've realized it's time.
It's just a matter of breaking the news.

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 01:52:38 GMT

Heading to Antioch once again.
Gosh, I can't believe Henry and Mel are leaving.
The end of an era... that's all I can say.

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 17:20:45 GMT

So, I'm a huge believer in not fixing what isn't broken.
But..... Trade Secret is offering me a management position.
Giving up working in cosmetics sucks.
I like my job now.
But, more pay, benefits, pto, guranteed 40 a week, 9:30-6 tues- sat.
Should I?
No more worrying about the schedule.
I'd be the boss.
Of a store.
Just sorta intimidating.
Not to mention the fact that sometimes... I didn't like working there.
But we'll see what they offer me.

ugh

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 17:40:57 GMT

I hate my mom.
She has no control, whatsoever.
My one day off this week, as soon as I wake up and I'm out of my room...
"Nicole, can you take me to the pharmacy?"
"I was about to leave for the gym..."
And, then all her rants and raves about how much she does around the house, and blah blah blah.
She doesn't have a job.
She doesn't have an income.
She doesn't support Jessica.
I do.
Why should I respect her as a mother?
She abandoned that role a long time ago.
Back when she started being so incoherant, for months, she couldn't make a sentence that made sense.
I remember... Henry coming over, sitting down on the couch next to my mom and fake barking like a dog, and then asking my mom when we got one? She started telling him this whole story about how we got it... even though we've never had one.
Randomly yelling, RONALD REGANS HERE!
She's absolutely nuts.
I guess that's what drugs do to people.
Fuck fuck fuck.
I'm irritated.
I can't ever do things on my own time.
I don't want to go to the gym anymore, I'm going to feel like crap if I don't.
Maybe I should just get a second job so I work 7 days a week and no one can bother me.
I just want to get out of here.
Everytime we try to move, something happens, completely out of our control.
I think I'm just cursed to stay here forever, and rot, like my parents have.
Grow older, more angry, and sorry as fuck.
I hate to say it, but that month that she was in the psych ward, was the best month I've had in a while.
I hate people's weaknesses, why can't they stop themselves.
And then their whole life is a burden on others.
My parents always told me they wanted me to do well in life, but I'm stuck here, because of them.
I'm scared to leave Jessica, she has no structure as is.
No one calls her to see where she's at while she's gone a week at a time, except for me...
I hate my family.

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 04:37:35 GMT

I've had this thing for over 5 years now...
I'll never delete it. I'll probably never stop using it, even though, it's hardly ever.
I'm bored, at home.
Jimmy and Chris are playing video games.
Jessica and Brian are at the boat... I'm waiting for them to return.
Ordered our computer yesterday... so I shall be on here alot more, most likely.
Jimmy starts school monday.
Ugh, we need a new beginning.
I hate Corey, I hope he dies a very painful, merciless death.
Amanda's moving away... it fucking sucks.
I want to buy a car now, I just need to keep saving.
Jetta or GTI, I will have, 2000 or newer by the end of the year.
I'll be super proud, my car, I bought, MYSELF.
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Working in Hayward sucks, I'll be happy to go back to the Concord counter tomorrow.
Blaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.
Sleepy.

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 05:15:08 GMT

It's been almost 3 years now, and even through the ups and downs... I think I love you now more than ever.

Sun, 19 Apr 2009 06:17:51 GMT

"Sometimes, I wonder, will I ever have friends like you again..."
Probably not.

It's Jessica's birthday today.

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 00:13:58 GMT

We're watching the moth man prophecies.
Matt, Jessica, me.
Happy birthday!
Waiting on Amanda for the Cheesecake Factory.
Surprise, new phone.

Meh.

Dude...

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 23:32:13 GMT

Had a fun ass day in the city with Jimmy, Jess, Amanda, and Chris.
I'm so torn.
But it's so fun.

Going to Fairfield with Elexis tomorrow to open a new BE counter in Macy's.
Should be stressful enough.

Jimmy's almost done with school, and then we'll be getting ready to move fo realz.
Good reliable jobs for both of us, our OWN place, I'm so excited to decorate and do all that girly stuff.
And soon a new car as well.
Woot.
Things are the way they're supposed to be, for once...

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 16:32:48 GMT

Wooo new job.
Woo 12 an hour.
Woo, not having to work so much because of it.
But, I've already lost all my friends.

Well... except I guess I have been making new ones.
I guess it's time to accept that I'm going to have friends that aren't into the same things as I, always.
If that makes sense.
I just woke up.
Amanda got a bomb ass laptop.
2 gig video cardddddddddddd.
If only I were so lucky.

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 19:46:08 GMT

I miss being down for anything.
Yesterday...
Sean, Vanessa, Chase.
Sean and Chase- No job, no school.
Nicole and Vanessa- work-a-holics.
I wish I could have stayed out all night.
Fuck my jobs.

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 18:53:00 GMT

Bahahaha.
Eric's coming over sometime this next week to play Soul Caliber.

I found out everyone I used to know does the same things as I do.
Makes me not feel so bad.

Chillin with Van and Chase on Monday.
All I needed to do was try.

I still want to quit one of my jobs.

I'll keep Golden Gate Fields.
Love it there.
But efff Trade Secret.
I want just one full time job, ugh.

Please don't let it end this way...

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 20:09:27 GMT

I don't know what it is about the internet. It always makes me so lonely. There's too many old, good, memories stored on here. It's weird, at 19 I feel like I've already lived out the best days of my life, and it's gone by so fast already. Now here I am, year and a half long relationship, no friends, no fun, just work. I write in this thing still to make my life into simple little lists, trying to make it sound exciting to two people who I miss more than anything. It's like trying to say "Yeah, I'm doing great!" Pfft. I just don't understand why things can't just all balance out. Why can't I have ALL these things at once? Why do I have to choose? I hope I run into EVERYONE at DVC, just so I can feel like I have human contact besides co-workers and my significant other. I miss San Fransisco, all the shitty spots. I miss bart, fuck my car. I just can't get excited about anything anymore, no more butterflies before a show. Am I dead inside? Or is this just growing up? Has everyone but me gotten over it already? Meh. I act like I''m okay now more than ever, but I think I'm doing worse than ever.

Life...

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 19:20:40 GMT

I think I like livejournal more than myspace, just because there's close to no one I know on here.
I'm starting at DVC in the fall, I just need school.
I want to get a degree in something, I'm thinking computers since I've taken up an interest in hardware... but would also love to learn more about software, even though I know the software part is going to be the hardest...
I want a new car, new place, new everything.
I just bought a new phone, I dig it hella.
Finally washed my car, for the first time, ha.
Our computer is almost done... the processor is on its way here.
I'm stoked, can't wait to play Crisis.
The wii has started collecting dust... too many good games on the PS3.
Enough of the nerdage.
Been jogging mile and a half three times a week with Sherene.
Drinking only water.
A month now.
I've realized it's much easier to go with someone, it makes you feel obligated.
Haven't been to shows... gas is expensive, and I can face the fact that I don't have too many friends there now, it happens.
Seeing Brand New on Saturday (Thanks Matt for the free tickets.)

I hate working at Trade Secret right now, it's lame, but the managment position will be up for grabs within the next month... but im also going to be working more at Golden Gate Fields... making 11.09 an hour sounds better than 8.50...
Whenever I'm at Trade Secret... I'm usually miserable.
Blah blah blah.
Pretty much.

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 02:40:42 GMT

Two new chinchillas. They rule.
Fixed my car.
Money in savings.
School in August.
Good.
Love.
Vanessa just got here.

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 20:26:42 GMT

Please let me get this manager position.
13.00/hr.
Bye bye Concord.
Hello Alameda, yes.
I need to get the brakes done on my car.

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 21:07:04 GMT

Sometimes being so attached scares me.
One year and three months.
It's too good right now, though.
Now... off to work.

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 00:05:26 GMT

As 2007 comes to an end...

1) Where did you begin 2007?
At the house in Antioch, with Henry, Melanie, Kevin, Josh, Jessica, and Jen.

2) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
I had been with him for about 2 months.

3) Were you in school? (anytime this year)
Nah.

4) How did you earn your money?
I didn't get a job until June, and now I have two.

5) Did you have to go to the hospital this year?
Yep.

6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
Yeah, the house, the antioch police department hated us.

7) Where did you go on holidays?
Family.

8) What did you purchase that was over $1,000?
Nothing, but I did get a new car, my dad payed over 1000 for it.

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
Nope.

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
Jimmy's dad, but I didn't really know him.

11) Did you lose any friends?
Yeah, a whole bunch.

12) Did you move anywhere?
Nope.

14) What concerts/shows did you go to?
Quite a few.

15) Are you registered to vote?
Yep.

16) Who did you want to win Big Brother?
Uhhh, I never watched it.

17) Where do you live now?
Concord, still.

18) Describe your birthday?
It was super chill... Hung out with Van all day, and went to dinner with Jimmy, my dad, and Jessica.

19) What's something you thought you'd never do but did in 2007?
Got my drivers liscense.

20) What has been your favorite moment?
There were quite a few.

21) Where did you go on vacation?
I didn't really go anywhere far, except for maybe Redding and Vacaville.

22)Any new addtions to the family?
Nope.

23.) What was your favorite month?
Probably the beginning months of the year, those were party months, but these past 2 months have been really good too.

24) How much have you partied?
Ummm, too much.

25) Made new friends?
Yeah, a few.

26) What did you do for 4th of July?
Went to a park, watched fire works, hung out with Darbee and Amanda.

27) Favorite Night out?
I don't think I could choose one.

28) Name the instance in which you had most to drink.
Too many nights I can't remember in the beginning of the year.

29) Are you in a relationship with someone you met this year?
We met December of last year.

2007 AWARDS:

1) DRINKING BUDDY OF THE YEAR
My boyfriend, and Jen.

2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD
My dad.

3) NEWCOMER AWARD
Chris, and Corey.

3) HIGH POINT OF THE YEAR?
Getting my car. Our one year anniversary. Cell phone.

4) LOW POINT OF THE YEAR?
Being so broke we couldn't afford food, or the phone bill.

5) BEST HOLIDAY?
Ummm, probably thanksgiving, Halloween was cool, but afterwards, a total mess.

6) YOUR SONG FOR 2007
I could never choose one.

7) MOVIE FOR 2007?
Ummm, I saw too many.

10) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINES WITH?
James Gabriel Clay.

11) BEST RELATIONSHIP?
The one and only.

12) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN?
Nurse, brah.

13) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR?
Los Gallos.

14) KISS OF THE YEAR?
I dunno.

15) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR?
I dunno.

16) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR?
MOVING.

17) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK?
Probably trying to drink more.

18) TV SHOW OF THE YEAR?
Uhm, I've always been partial to Futurama.

19) MOST LOYAL FRIEND?
Van, and Jen.

20) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR?
EVERYTHING.

21) BIGGEST DOUCHBAG AWARD?
Gordon.

22) NEW YEAR RESOLUTION?
GET THE FUCK OUT OF THIS APARTMENT.

Wed, 12 Dec 2007 21:33:03 GMT

Well, I found the birthday card the other day in my room.
I cried, for 20 minutes.
I miss it, so bad.

Jimmy and I are looking into renting a house with Corey and Jay.
I really hope that works out.
I rather live with all guys.